I've been in a whirlwind of mental states lately, ranging from extreme happiness and full-body ecstasy to pigeonholed isolation and hopelessness, molding together and producing a one-track mind, with anything unrelated being perceived as negative and detrimental. I feel really unproductive, feel detatched from my duties as promo director/most everyone at the station, and dread going to work. Classes are beginning to grate on me - for some reason I feel behind in everything. The only things I want to do is play guitar and learn more about it, and be with the girl I like.

The summer will be a time of massive change - I will be moving ever further from Walled Lake, and more in the direction my future career in broadcasting/audio production will hopefully take me. I'll be living in Grand Rapids for the entirety of the summer most likely, while interning at WGVU running production-type stuff. Bonnaroo is going to be incredible - I do believe it will be the best weekend of the summer, and it just might be able to top Lolla 08. I plan on volunteering at Rothbury again and am anxiously awaiting any info regarding the Pitchfork fest - the lineup for that is always so solid, plus its cheap, and fairly close.

I might invest in a video camera to document my life this summer, for I honestly haven't the slightest clue as to how it'll turn out. For the first time in 4 summers I won't be working at the movie theatre back home, this will be a massive change in and of itself. I think video has a lot of possibility to document yourself in a much more original and genuine way, and at the very least I want some memories to look back on.

I know what I want my band to sound like. I want heavily distorted, fuzzy sounding, multi-layered guitars, but I also want a certain ferocity and aggressiveness that a lot of punk music has. This would be a good summer project.