I really like where things are headed - they're headed into the light, into the open air, amongst everything that is free and positive and united.

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* Promotions for The Whale - the group has narrowed and only those that are truly interested in getting involved have stuck around, I respect these people a great deal

* Love - the train is finally rolling in. It feels incredible to have somebody break through the walls you put around yourself, but on the other hand it is odd having there be something to fill that void, I have to remember how to handle this feeling and how to improve upon the past

* The summer/future - at least on a personal level, I couldn't be happier. living arrangements are set up for the summer, this should be a lot of fun. Bonnaroo's coming along with a whole bunch of fantastic shows, as well as the much wanted warm weather. I feel like/have felt like that I have way too much that I want to do in each day, and upon my mind crashing in realization of this fact I typically just flip open the computer screen and mindlessly drown everything in the glow. I need to stop this, but I suppose its a better position to be in than having nothing at all to do. Resident Evil 5.

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* Walled Lake - I dread going back. Not simply because I feel I've outgrown the city, but because the house I've spent the most amount of years in is nothing more than a hollow carapace. It really got to me on Sunday in the few hours I spent there on how depressing it really must be for my mom. There are so many little things in our house that take you back to a happier time, a blissful existence that seemed almost too perfect. I think this is a reason why I am so eager to move forward - it's half because I am scared to look back at the trail of rotten heirlooms and old electronics. I know that house is a poetry/art/nostalgia goldmine - I immediately felt a total shift in my mental state when I opened the door, and it lingered for a couple hours after I left that night

* Doubting my career - I have no idea how much someone with a broadcasting degree from GVSU might make out of college, if there are any jobs available, or if I'd be better off either a) changing my major, b) going to a better school for broadcasting, or c) just sticking with it and hoping for the best. I was always so scared, even up to last year, that there weren't any majors I could see myself doing, but this looks exactly like what i want to do. I'll never be as rich as my dad, but I wouldn't trade any amount of money to be where he's ended up.

When I look ahead 10 years, I see myself being very happy. Hopefully by then I'll be married with a solid career in the broadcast arts, remaining in touch with the world/the arts/technology, with a beautiful and smart wife, about to begin raising our first child whom I will do all I can to give him or her the abilities/knowledge that was left in the dark for me to stumble upon

I scare myself at how positive this entry looks