I really like where things are headed - they're headed into the light, into the open air, amongst everything that is free and positive and united.

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* Promotions for The Whale - the group has narrowed and only those that are truly interested in getting involved have stuck around, I respect these people a great deal

* Love - the train is finally rolling in. It feels incredible to have somebody break through the walls you put around yourself, but on the other hand it is odd having there be something to fill that void, I have to remember how to handle this feeling and how to improve upon the past

* The summer/future - at least on a personal level, I couldn't be happier. living arrangements are set up for the summer, this should be a lot of fun. Bonnaroo's coming along with a whole bunch of fantastic shows, as well as the much wanted warm weather. I feel like/have felt like that I have way too much that I want to do in each day, and upon my mind crashing in realization of this fact I typically just flip open the computer screen and mindlessly drown everything in the glow. I need to stop this, but I suppose its a better position to be in than having nothing at all to do. Resident Evil 5.

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* Walled Lake - I dread going back. Not simply because I feel I've outgrown the city, but because the house I've spent the most amount of years in is nothing more than a hollow carapace. It really got to me on Sunday in the few hours I spent there on how depressing it really must be for my mom. There are so many little things in our house that take you back to a happier time, a blissful existence that seemed almost too perfect. I think this is a reason why I am so eager to move forward - it's half because I am scared to look back at the trail of rotten heirlooms and old electronics. I know that house is a poetry/art/nostalgia goldmine - I immediately felt a total shift in my mental state when I opened the door, and it lingered for a couple hours after I left that night

* Doubting my career - I have no idea how much someone with a broadcasting degree from GVSU might make out of college, if there are any jobs available, or if I'd be better off either a) changing my major, b) going to a better school for broadcasting, or c) just sticking with it and hoping for the best. I was always so scared, even up to last year, that there weren't any majors I could see myself doing, but this looks exactly like what i want to do. I'll never be as rich as my dad, but I wouldn't trade any amount of money to be where he's ended up.

When I look ahead 10 years, I see myself being very happy. Hopefully by then I'll be married with a solid career in the broadcast arts, remaining in touch with the world/the arts/technology, with a beautiful and smart wife, about to begin raising our first child whom I will do all I can to give him or her the abilities/knowledge that was left in the dark for me to stumble upon

I scare myself at how positive this entry looks

I've been in a whirlwind of mental states lately, ranging from extreme happiness and full-body ecstasy to pigeonholed isolation and hopelessness, molding together and producing a one-track mind, with anything unrelated being perceived as negative and detrimental. I feel really unproductive, feel detatched from my duties as promo director/most everyone at the station, and dread going to work. Classes are beginning to grate on me - for some reason I feel behind in everything. The only things I want to do is play guitar and learn more about it, and be with the girl I like.

The summer will be a time of massive change - I will be moving ever further from Walled Lake, and more in the direction my future career in broadcasting/audio production will hopefully take me. I'll be living in Grand Rapids for the entirety of the summer most likely, while interning at WGVU running production-type stuff. Bonnaroo is going to be incredible - I do believe it will be the best weekend of the summer, and it just might be able to top Lolla 08. I plan on volunteering at Rothbury again and am anxiously awaiting any info regarding the Pitchfork fest - the lineup for that is always so solid, plus its cheap, and fairly close.

I might invest in a video camera to document my life this summer, for I honestly haven't the slightest clue as to how it'll turn out. For the first time in 4 summers I won't be working at the movie theatre back home, this will be a massive change in and of itself. I think video has a lot of possibility to document yourself in a much more original and genuine way, and at the very least I want some memories to look back on.

I know what I want my band to sound like. I want heavily distorted, fuzzy sounding, multi-layered guitars, but I also want a certain ferocity and aggressiveness that a lot of punk music has. This would be a good summer project.

Bonnaroo

Bonnaroo

Superfly Productions and A.C. Entertainment are excited to announce the initial lineup for the 2009 Bonnaroo Music and Arts Festival. The eighth annual four-day camping and music festival will be held on June 11 - 14 on the same beautiful 700-acre farm in Manchester, Tennessee, 60 miles south of Nashville. Every year Bonnaroo seeks to make history by offering unique and exclusive performances by rock’s greatest legends as well as its most significant newcomers. A full list of confirmed acts follows, and more will be announced in the coming weeks. The final Bonnaroo 2009 lineup will total over 120 bands and over 20 comedians performing on 13 stages over four days. Tickets go on sale exclusively through www.bonnaroo.com on Saturday, February 7 at 12:00 PM Eastern.

Official festival website is www.bonnaroo.com







2009 Bonnaroo Music and Arts Festival Confirmed Artists:




Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band
Phish (2 Shows)
Beastie Boys
Nine Inch Nails
David Byrne
Wilco
Al Green
Snoop Dogg
Elvis Costello Solo
Erykah Badu
Paul Oakenfold
Ben Harper and Relentless7
The Mars Volta
TV on the Radio
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Gov’t Mule
Andrew Bird
Merle Haggard
MGMT
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The Decemberists
Girl Talk
Bon Iver
Béla Fleck & Toumani Diabate
Rodrigo y Gabriela
Galactic
The Del McCoury Band
of Montreal
Allen Toussaint
Coheed and Cambria
Booker T & the DBTs
David Grisman Quintet
Lucinda Williams
Animal Collective
Gomez
Neko Case
Down
Jenny Lewis
Santogold
Robert Earl Keen
Citizen Cope
Femi Kuti and the Positive Force
The Ting Tings
Robyn Hitchcock & The Venus 3
Grace Potter and the Nocturnals
Kaki King
Grizzly Bear
King Sunny Adé
Okkervil River
St. Vincent
Zac Brown Band
Raphael Saadiq
Ted Leo and the Pharmacists
Crystal Castles
Tift Merritt
Brett Dennen
Mike Farris and the Roseland Rhythm Revue
Toubab Krewe
People Under the Stairs
Alejandro Escovedo
Vieux Farka Touré
Elvis Perkins In Dearland
Cherryholmes
Yeasayer
Todd Snider
Chairlift
Portugal. The Man.
The SteelDrivers
Midnite
The Knux
The Low Anthem
Delta Spirit
A.A. Bondy
The Lovell Sisters
Alberta Cross

AWESOME.